Yes. No. Maybe. I don’t know.
To make a decision always means to make a choice and to decide against something at that moment. “What if it’s the wrong decision?” “What if such an opportunity never arises again and I make the wrong choice?” “What if I regret it afterwards?”.
Because we cannot precisely assess the consequences of new decisions, we hesitate, weigh and think back and forth. Often weeks, months or years. We, more precisely our intellect, are looking for absolute security, for a guarantee that nobody can give us and so we stay where we are and lead a life in the comfort zone, in which we feel safe but are not happy.
Instead of liveliness, growth and new experiences, we opt for “Groundhog Day”. For a life in the usual ways. And despite this security, we long for more. More sense. More adventure, more fulfillment.
What if we could only win with every new decision?
Quality of life instead of security?
I used to feel the same way before making decisions. Today I know that there are no wrong decisions. Because with my decision to study Hotel Management & Tourism, I was able to live out my passion for languages, cultures and travel. Even if not consciously chosen at the beginning, my job in hotels also suited me. I was able to work with many different people in a varied and creative job.
2020…
Covid 19, desperation, depressions and more. I had the feeling that I was missing something in terms of content. The pandemic hit us very hard. Many of us including me, where standing at the very beginning… with nothing left and feeling the urgency to do something. To decide!
I’ve made a number of new decisions since then:
- I quit my hotel job at the beginning of 2020
- took an 10 month break
- started a digital marketing course
- worked on improvements for my family’s business
- changed my thoughts about returning to my home country of choice…
Unlike in the past, I no longer made an alleged security or guarantee as the benchmark for these decisions, but what I want for the future and what is important to me: freedom, growth, liveliness and above all the opportunity to do something, that makes me happy and fulfills me.
With the knowledge that it’s not about arriving, but about the journey, and that I will always fall on my feet.
“The sum of your choices is your life”- Albert Camus
Even if I was always missing something in previous jobs: None of the decisions made were wrong. They were all pieces of the puzzle that made me grow and get to know myself better, and that brought me to exactly this point. Nothing was free. I have had good and bad experiences on my way so far.
If tomorrow, in 1, 2 or 5 years, I make a new decision or take a new path, then wonderful new situations, moments and encounters and certainly one or the other challenge will arise. And that’s exactly what defines life for me. It’s not black or white. It is colorful.
P.s. I’m a gemini…